Some things has been on my mind for the past few days. One of them was about my weight,an ongoing issue for a very long time. I was desperately trying to loose a few kgs so that I could wear my old clothes (skirts,shorts,t-shirts,tank tops) all over again. B'cos it would definitely be such a waste. But i failed still. I have tried jogging, dieting, eating fruits and etc, but it didn't work.

Then, I've come to realise that there is definitely a reason for me not to be able to loose weight. Maybe because I have shown too much flesh to everyone. I have not been doing the right thing that I should have done years ago.

And today,after going to the mosque for a tahlil, the syarahan that came after that really pinch me back to reality. All those sins i have committed, all those bad things i have done, i wish i have not done it. I was too young to even understand the mistakes i made.

I am confused with myself. Is this the answer to all my questions for the past one year? Is this the sign for me to start wearing the hijab and be true to myself? Maybe it's definitely the right time to change, not change drastically, but change gradually... but i am sure that this change is for the right thing and the path to commit myself to Him. Insya'allah.

Some things has been on my mind for the past few days. One of them was about my weight,an ongoing issue for a very long time. I was desperately trying to loose a few kgs so that I could wear my old clothes (skirts,shorts,t-shirts,tank tops) all over again. B'cos it would definitely be such a waste. But i failed still. I have tried jogging, dieting, eating fruits and etc, but it didn't work.

Then, I've come to realise that there is definitely a reason for me not to be able to loose weight. Maybe because I have shown too much flesh to everyone. I have not been doing the right thing that I should have done years ago.

And today,after going to the mosque for a tahlil, the syarahan that came after that really pinch me back to reality. All those sins i have committed, all those bad things i have done, i wish i have not done it. I was too young to even understand the mistakes i made.

I am confused with myself. Is this the answer to all my questions for the past one year? Is this the sign for me to start wearing the hijab and be true to myself? Maybe it's definitely the right time to change, not change drastically, but change gradually... but i am sure that this change is for the right thing and the path to commit myself to Him. Insya'allah.