I know this post is almost a month past my birthday, but, I still want to mention that I did have a wonderful 21st birthday. Suprises from him, the Twilight books, Narnia, a 2009 diary, my favourite Charles&Keith' bag, the fm tuner for ipod and the lunch treat at Manhattan Fish Market.

Though it wasn't as loud as my 20th birthday, but I prefer this years'. More quiet and simple. He knew very well that I wasn't after the presents, but, I was after the moments spent quietly with him. I preferred quiet and stillness, rather than the loud music or sounds of celebrations. Maybe its because this year, I've stepped into the adults world and the childhood memories seemed so distant for me now. I've got to move on now, I guess.

After the birthday, it was Valentines'. Yeah, this year's I'm not with him. Well, he went off for Brunei 2 days before that, so, I spent my Saturday at my cousin's house. I was glad that I have my cousins and relatives around me. (Baik ah sister! Hehe. )

My mood swings didn't help me either. With him away, I had to keep things inside. The only 2 ways of letting go of them, scream inside me while I listened to those rock music, or, to just vent it off somehow. One way or another.

I had a statistic test last week. I think it killed half of my brain cells on Thursday. The language totally finished me off. I took a long time to decipher whatever the question was asking and when the lecturer went through the answers, it simply finished me off. But amazingly when I counted the number of questions I did correctly, I survived. As for the accounting test this coming Friday, I'm hoping I could scrap through it and learn from my mistakes. Then, the assignments are giving me headaches each day. Each time I thought about it, I'll just shut it off again. Urghh.


On the brighter notes, I'm growing closer to my groupmates for OB. I kind of like the friendships that all of us share. Its totally different from poly, more serious and funny. A balance of both.

I guess I've let it out all and its such a relief for me! Good nights!

I know this post is almost a month past my birthday, but, I still want to mention that I did have a wonderful 21st birthday. Suprises from him, the Twilight books, Narnia, a 2009 diary, my favourite Charles&Keith' bag, the fm tuner for ipod and the lunch treat at Manhattan Fish Market.

Though it wasn't as loud as my 20th birthday, but I prefer this years'. More quiet and simple. He knew very well that I wasn't after the presents, but, I was after the moments spent quietly with him. I preferred quiet and stillness, rather than the loud music or sounds of celebrations. Maybe its because this year, I've stepped into the adults world and the childhood memories seemed so distant for me now. I've got to move on now, I guess.

After the birthday, it was Valentines'. Yeah, this year's I'm not with him. Well, he went off for Brunei 2 days before that, so, I spent my Saturday at my cousin's house. I was glad that I have my cousins and relatives around me. (Baik ah sister! Hehe. )

My mood swings didn't help me either. With him away, I had to keep things inside. The only 2 ways of letting go of them, scream inside me while I listened to those rock music, or, to just vent it off somehow. One way or another.

I had a statistic test last week. I think it killed half of my brain cells on Thursday. The language totally finished me off. I took a long time to decipher whatever the question was asking and when the lecturer went through the answers, it simply finished me off. But amazingly when I counted the number of questions I did correctly, I survived. As for the accounting test this coming Friday, I'm hoping I could scrap through it and learn from my mistakes. Then, the assignments are giving me headaches each day. Each time I thought about it, I'll just shut it off again. Urghh.


On the brighter notes, I'm growing closer to my groupmates for OB. I kind of like the friendships that all of us share. Its totally different from poly, more serious and funny. A balance of both.

I guess I've let it out all and its such a relief for me! Good nights!