this weekend sure will be fun like last weekend!

I wasn't in Singapore over the weekend, was in jb with the family and my cousins. It was just a short trip and its a first time for us to be outside Singapore during Hari Raya. At first I wasn't really keen to go cause Raz took part in the Standard Chartered marathon and I wasn't there to support him like how I promised him to. Anyway, I did enjoy myself and with the cousins, it was always fun! Haha. (I still remember the rempit thingy and also the lalat zZzz-ing! )

For the first time, I reached Mersing and I must say the beach and the waves were beautiful. We did some shopping at the Jusco Tebrau and ate like pigs. Hoho. Nah, not pigs, but we ate our hearts out throughout the 3 days! =) I'll post the pixies below.

In the afternoon, we went to pay a visit to our grandma's (from my dad's side) and grandfather's grave (from my mum's side). Its been awhile since I've mentioned about it that I want to make a quick visit. And I finally had the chance. I admit, I was emotional when I reached my grandfather's grave. I sort of, told him that I wish he is still here with us so that things won't be this way. Things would be better i guess...and to our surprise, he actually left us 17 years ago, when I was 3 years old and now I'm already turning 21! I just wanted to tell him how much I missed him so much though I have vague memories with him when I was young. I wish I could tell him that I still remember those dolls he bought me. I wish he could do something and stop all these stupid fights between his children. I wish he could bring us back together again, but I know its all fated to happen.

Was just surfing for iphone. Argh. I wish I had the moolahs to get it, but there's always the iclone china phone. Haha. Costs 1/5 of the ori iphone and with bonus tv aerial! Lols. Speaking of which, I know someone is already observing what I want for my 21st birthday next month! ( So sayang, get me the iphone please, if not, the china iphone also can. Hehehehe.) Oh no! 21st birthday! Please don't remind me...I'm gonna be a year older now. I've gotta plan what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life soon. The year that just passed, makes me stronger and more matured. I went through alot of things and it openned my eyes to the real world, but I know there's more to come. ..

Life is just so priceless than nothing, nothing in this world would be able to replace the loved ones we've lost within such a short time. No one know what will happen to us and our loved ones within seconds, within hours, within days and even weeks. The memories of yesterdays are still fresh, and the scent of that person we missed is still lingering around. What we know, is that one day, we'll be crossing the gates to the afterlife too just like our ancestors and the olders ones. But no one knows whether that day will come today, or tomorrow or in many years to come.

Everything just happens so suddenly that i'm still unable to digest the fact that she's gone, his mom has gone to meet the One above us. I could still remember the last time i met her when she invited me for a dinner and we've met up to pass her belated birthday presents. We took photos, we joked and she even tasted my 'kuih salat' =). I even told her how much he always bully me and we laughed it off.

I fell ill last Sunday due to gastral infection and he was there taking care of me after i visited the doctor. He waited till i got better in the evening, then he left to see his mom. When he called me later that night, they already sent her to the hospital. And yesterday, when i went to pay her a visit, i was shocked at her state. I couldn't believe my eyes that the lady whom i know as cheerful, happy and energetic was now lying on the hospital bed, fighting for her life. I hoped, i prayed that she would be strong, as strong as how i knew her, as strong as how i heard from him about her. But as planned by God, by how we knew that He loved her so much more than the rest of us did, she left us to meet Him ard 5.15pm.

I was still within my own space, when his dad told me that his mom had passed away. And in my mind, i was still thinking, picturing about what had happened 2 hours before when i just arrived. I just kept to myself, and tears slowly swelled my eyes but i knew i have to hold it back somehow. I had to be strong, strong for him to lean on and cry on my shoulders if he needs to.

I hope he will be strong, stronger now that he has just lost someone for him to cling on, to speak to, share problems with. I could feel what he is feeling now and deep inside i know he still can't accept the fact that she's gone forever.

And now, i want him to know that he still have me by his side and will be there for him in the future too, insya'allah. As for me, i know now that i should treasure the ones i have with me now, and letting them know that i love them in case i don't have the opportunity to tell them in the future.

Whereas for the rest of us who'll miss her, all that's left for us to do is say some prayers for her whenever she comes to our minds. Aminn.

(Him with his late mum in May 2008)




(Me with his late mum in May 2008)

this weekend sure will be fun like last weekend!

I wasn't in Singapore over the weekend, was in jb with the family and my cousins. It was just a short trip and its a first time for us to be outside Singapore during Hari Raya. At first I wasn't really keen to go cause Raz took part in the Standard Chartered marathon and I wasn't there to support him like how I promised him to. Anyway, I did enjoy myself and with the cousins, it was always fun! Haha. (I still remember the rempit thingy and also the lalat zZzz-ing! )

For the first time, I reached Mersing and I must say the beach and the waves were beautiful. We did some shopping at the Jusco Tebrau and ate like pigs. Hoho. Nah, not pigs, but we ate our hearts out throughout the 3 days! =) I'll post the pixies below.

In the afternoon, we went to pay a visit to our grandma's (from my dad's side) and grandfather's grave (from my mum's side). Its been awhile since I've mentioned about it that I want to make a quick visit. And I finally had the chance. I admit, I was emotional when I reached my grandfather's grave. I sort of, told him that I wish he is still here with us so that things won't be this way. Things would be better i guess...and to our surprise, he actually left us 17 years ago, when I was 3 years old and now I'm already turning 21! I just wanted to tell him how much I missed him so much though I have vague memories with him when I was young. I wish I could tell him that I still remember those dolls he bought me. I wish he could do something and stop all these stupid fights between his children. I wish he could bring us back together again, but I know its all fated to happen.

Was just surfing for iphone. Argh. I wish I had the moolahs to get it, but there's always the iclone china phone. Haha. Costs 1/5 of the ori iphone and with bonus tv aerial! Lols. Speaking of which, I know someone is already observing what I want for my 21st birthday next month! ( So sayang, get me the iphone please, if not, the china iphone also can. Hehehehe.) Oh no! 21st birthday! Please don't remind me...I'm gonna be a year older now. I've gotta plan what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life soon. The year that just passed, makes me stronger and more matured. I went through alot of things and it openned my eyes to the real world, but I know there's more to come. ..

Life is just so priceless than nothing, nothing in this world would be able to replace the loved ones we've lost within such a short time. No one know what will happen to us and our loved ones within seconds, within hours, within days and even weeks. The memories of yesterdays are still fresh, and the scent of that person we missed is still lingering around. What we know, is that one day, we'll be crossing the gates to the afterlife too just like our ancestors and the olders ones. But no one knows whether that day will come today, or tomorrow or in many years to come.

Everything just happens so suddenly that i'm still unable to digest the fact that she's gone, his mom has gone to meet the One above us. I could still remember the last time i met her when she invited me for a dinner and we've met up to pass her belated birthday presents. We took photos, we joked and she even tasted my 'kuih salat' =). I even told her how much he always bully me and we laughed it off.

I fell ill last Sunday due to gastral infection and he was there taking care of me after i visited the doctor. He waited till i got better in the evening, then he left to see his mom. When he called me later that night, they already sent her to the hospital. And yesterday, when i went to pay her a visit, i was shocked at her state. I couldn't believe my eyes that the lady whom i know as cheerful, happy and energetic was now lying on the hospital bed, fighting for her life. I hoped, i prayed that she would be strong, as strong as how i knew her, as strong as how i heard from him about her. But as planned by God, by how we knew that He loved her so much more than the rest of us did, she left us to meet Him ard 5.15pm.

I was still within my own space, when his dad told me that his mom had passed away. And in my mind, i was still thinking, picturing about what had happened 2 hours before when i just arrived. I just kept to myself, and tears slowly swelled my eyes but i knew i have to hold it back somehow. I had to be strong, strong for him to lean on and cry on my shoulders if he needs to.

I hope he will be strong, stronger now that he has just lost someone for him to cling on, to speak to, share problems with. I could feel what he is feeling now and deep inside i know he still can't accept the fact that she's gone forever.

And now, i want him to know that he still have me by his side and will be there for him in the future too, insya'allah. As for me, i know now that i should treasure the ones i have with me now, and letting them know that i love them in case i don't have the opportunity to tell them in the future.

Whereas for the rest of us who'll miss her, all that's left for us to do is say some prayers for her whenever she comes to our minds. Aminn.

(Him with his late mum in May 2008)




(Me with his late mum in May 2008)