if one of us is lying

You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes

30 November 2007 / 4:21 AM

today is gonna be a long day for me.
8 to 6.
tmr im going for a massage.
like finally.
maybe im going visiting tmr evening.

right now, as im typing this entry, my sexyladies are working their ass off at expo now.
haha.
cant imagine the 3 of you selling the hardware magazine.
ok.
it sounds wrong.
but, its an internet magazine about computer stuffs.
what were you all thinking???

anyway, im gonna visit you 3 on saturday.
so hang on there..... its already half of thursday!

sunday im going to support him at the standard chartered run.
and monday im going shopping!!!!
for the add clothes.
hees.
forget the stress for awhile.

im gonna have mc spicy for lunch. yippeee!!!

28 November 2007 / 3:59 PM

the internet giving me problems again.

im going nuts over it.

" not connected "

fcuk it.

tmr's mtb test.

5-6pm.

and i end sch at ard 11.

6 hours of mugging in the library can make a sane person go insane too.

but i know i'll just catch some sleep somewhere :)

im seeing you tmr!

yes, you.

/ 3:29 PM

its all over between us now.

and i cant believe it ended yesterday.

yes.

yesterday afternoon.

at 1 pm.

no, and im not gonna miss you.

im glad it ended between us.

you go on your own way,

i'll go mine.

i'll have peace & serenity.

ITS OVER, FYP.

GOODBYE.

with lotsa <3

26 November 2007 / 1:03 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST POMPEEPEE!

yati's birthday!!!

25 November 2007 / 1:07 PM

met the girls at around 1?

we went to town to get everything ready + plans

hehehe.

so finally, it was SHOWTIME

it was SURPRISING!

i hoped my prettypretty fish-eye-camera owner loved the surprise!

'hi maam would you like to have 2 balloons?'

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! "

omg. she was so shocked that she laughed & cried?

heeehee.

i hoped u like the presents, sayang!

then after that we went to paragon's project shop cafe for a simple celebration.

brownie with ice cream + candle + birthday song = happyness

so at ard 5.20, i left the girls to meet him for the bbq.

that kental bf of mine, mistook the west train for the east train.

so we both missed each other. i dropped off at bedok with hal since she's dropping there.

i hopped on the next train tt he was in.

that was when things happened.

i regretted meeting him today.

if ONLY i knew that it would only turned out this way, i shdnt have met him.

we actually sat at pasir ris platform, arguing over things and that i dont wanna go the bbq.

i mean.

just imagine.

u treated both sides equally, so that u'll have fun with both sides.

and in the end, u were told in the face tt u shd have just gone home cos u were supposed to be studying.

WAT THE FUCK.

i did that for you, and that was what i get in the end?

thanks alot ah.

the next time u tell me u got some friends' bbq or whatever, im not going.

i dont like ur friends anyway.

a bunch of losers aka the malay mats who cannot make it in the world.

ok, how mean of me.

but.

thats true.

if i cant even stand them for 1 hr, do u think i can stand them bbq-ing in front of me, and handing me the chicken or wat have yous?

no way.

i cant even imagine that happening!

so go yourself.

that's the reason why i changed my mind at the last min.

just to go home, all by myself.

next time, if u dont want me to go, fine, i wont go.

and i dont wanna go anyway in the first place.

yeah.

maybe im too childish that i loved holding balloons.

maybe thats why u didnt want me to go.

FINE. I DONT WANNA GO ANYWAY!

fuck off.

just go urself.

and now im even thinking abt whether want to meet u tmr or not.

i should be studying right?

and stay at home.

yeah. maybe that's wat im going to do.

just study all day long at home.

dont even bother meeting me tmr.

having fun there i guess.

so goodbye,

& good night everyone.

i've had my shoutout for today.

/ 1:07 PM

Must Everything you do?

Makes me wanna smile.

I love you beyond the reason why.

And that's the reason why i adore you.

he appeared at my doorstep, a few mins after i blogged the previous entry.

with the flowers in his hands.

and a tiny card saying 'i'm sorry & i love you'.

and then he left.

Breakin' Dishes

23 November 2007 / 1:58 PM

the phone's vibrations not working.

shit them.

now, i wont even know if any of my darlings msg me once i put the phone to silent mode.

arggggh.

i wish i could scream!

today was tiring.
i didnt bring my THUMBDRIVE!

so the 4 hours of PDP was wasted.

hais. thanks to me,that is.

so just now i tried doing the simulations from home.

3 hours.

and i got sick looking at it.

so now im waiting for snowlin to send me the format for the logbook.

at least tmr he's bringing me to sentosa to release some stress i hope.

monday - FYP DATELINE.

wednesday- MTB test==> fuck&im dead.

i havent even touch a single shit of it yet.

tmr- fyp + sentosa

sat- gurlies outing + his friend's bbq.

so that will leave me with sunday.

im doomed.

my doom's day is coming soon.

had a terrible nightmare yesterday. it was soo over. why must you always appear? its gonna be a year already. i don't need you or your shadow. so please, leave me in peace. WHY MUST YOU?!!! leave me alone.

21 November 2007 / 2:58 PM

ok, so here's a summary of what happened at nokia.
the queue was 1 hr.
there's only 4 bloody counters.
so i had to wait for my turn.
the woman told me tt its an application problem.
so she reset the whole phone for me.
i had to install everything again.
"if u encounter the same problem again, pls come back and we'll update the applications for u"
wtf. might as well update now right?
luckily i mentioned tt it was ok just now, if not, my lovely hp will hafta sleep in tamp for 3 working days!
f shit lah.
then, to make me feel better, we went to airport to eat dinner!
POPEYES!!!!
my first time there.
but it was nice actually!
then i went home, feeling alot better. :)

to my dearest phone, i have bought you a new companion, which is the hp pouch. it has sequins and patterns and its super nice. please treat your new companion nicely, or i will treat u mean!! im sorry for losing your original nokia companion yesterday at the terminal 3. i promise this new one will treat you good! :)

wat a day!!!

/ 6:11 AM

my bloody phone died on me when i was in the train to school just now.
it started to die actually from yesterday,when i couldnt even listen to any songs when i took the train back from changi to eunos.
f shit.
it irritates me yesterday, & spoiled my mood for today.
i rushed back home to get the warranty card, so that i could get to nokia tampines.
ccb.
im so damned tired, that when i took my lunch, i was still fuming.
so i decided to re-format the memory card.
and its bloody OK!
wtf.
im still gonna bring this phone to tampines later on to have it checked.
its only a month old, and cant be spoilt right?
so im gonna bloody travel to tampines, and bring it to the bloody nokia servicing centre, and ask them abt this bloody phone's problem.
till later... im gonna doze off for a while...

so sick :(

17 November 2007 / 1:04 PM

boohoo. been sick seen yesterday, no, actually since thursday.

the cough and the blocked nose irritates me to the core.

and i had to cancel the bbq tt i promised to go with him...(booohooo!!)

thursday i had a bad day to start with.

it was raining and i couldnt concentrate during plant design.

grr.

then i found out that i had practical in the afternoon.

i had argued with peter the day before that we had off, but i was wrong.

so i had to skip the 12-2pm lesson, just to get my lab stuffs from home.

then, i reached the lab late for abt 15 mins.

basket. my group was waiting for me actually.

then yesterday, i was doing my fyp from 9 am to 2pm.

that was when i started to cough terribly tt a woman sitting nxt to me had to shift to another seat.

ahh.. watever singaporeans, no, not singaporeans, cheenahs-who-are-dumb-as-they-thought-cough-could-infect-another-person!

we were too engrossed in finishing the report by yesterday, so tt we'll have time to edit them.

but im glad the simulations were finally done!

so after that, i met him.

we couldnt decide what to watch when i bimbotically suggested tt we should watch 'enchanted'.

we took 106 down to town, when i saw the 'enchanted' poster at one bustop.

being sooo excited, i was like;

me: eh sayang! tt's the Enchanted movie! i cant wait lah

him: smiling at me one kind (i knew that smile of his..tt cheeky face)

then i noticed..

"opens 22 november"

me: eh? its open on 22nd lah! today wat date ah? open already ah?

him: (looking at his watch and hp for the date)

me: (looking at my hp) eh? today only 16 ar? alamak! not openned yet? how?

him: oh shit. i thought u didnt notice tt. i was hoping u didnt see, & i'll wait til u reach the counter n asked for the tickets. hehehehe....

me: idiot u! u knew its not openned yet! bugger...

and in the end, we watched Beowulf. i thought it was an action movie, then i realised tt it was animation effects 5 mins after the movie started. haha. it was OK, but i wouldnt wanna give it 4 out of 5 stars though.

and he ate macdonald's nugget as we sat down at the istana park.

then he sent me home when my mum invited him for dinner.

lols.

and i was already coughing so bad tt i felt like sleeping rightaway.

this morning, mum forced me to go doctor so tt i could get some pills.

and now, im resting on my bed, feeling sleepy all of a sudden.

(the syrup's working on me! argh!)

and he's starting to feel sick too.

oh wells.

people, spread the love, not the disease! hahas.

happy saturday!

goodbye and im gonna sleep...zZZzzZZZzz....

14 November 2007 / 10:00 PM

sick :(

bugis sucks.

11 November 2007 / 9:59 PM

ok. i shall update what i did the whole day today. met my leelee at around 12.45. we went to bugis, wanting to do 'something' to my hair... which is.... doing hair extensions. seriously, that bugis street shop just cheats people money. i paid 5 fucking dollars for a bund, and i decided to put 30 bunds at first, and it costed me my fucking precious $150!! i wasnt satisfied at all. 1stly, the people were all cinas, and they cant communicate with us. 2ndly, its fucking expensive. 3rdly, when i wasnt satisfied with the services, they asked me to pay 60 fucking dollars if i want to remove the extensions. so i decided to keep it though it was fucking ugly(which was a good thing i did for later). if u wanna noe which shop? ask me or go figure.

so we went to eat at the banquet, when i had an idea and called another good friend of mine. she asked me to go to another place, where i got it for $1 for 1 bund. wtffffff right? compared to the bugis one. knn. cheat my money. so there, i paid another $120 (but Darling sponsored $100 for me in the end) to get everything done properly this time. so yeah, its done now. at least its fucking much better and nicer. cb, im never gonna go bugis and get it done.btw, leelee got herself 5 ash-blond extensions too! so nice on her lah.

so after that, i went to tampines to get the things that mom asked me to get. i went to tamp with leelee and waited to meet my dearest sweetheart. *winks*. he said i looked different with the hair. maybe cos im not tooooooo used to having super long hair. do u believe that this is actually the first time i got long hair? haha. always usually at the shoulder only. :) lets try sth new eh? even if i get bored of the hair in month(s) time, i could always take it off and put other lengths. hehe. beauty of extensions. and then, leelee bought bk vouchers for her mum, and that boy and me went 'grocery shopping' at ntuc. i actually forced him to get the chipsmore, if not, he wouldnt even wanna touch those 'unhealthy' food. haha. and he got me smint: peachy flavor. so sweet eh? "sayang, that's for u not to sleep during lectures. :P". zomg.

and talking abt lectures, tmr i'll be having 8-12 lectures. and after that im going home to study, or maybe i study in school lah. see how it goes for me. and this coming week will be super busy for me. fyp's report due's in erm...14 days? gotta 'overtime' this week. hees. okays, enough said. im gonna post today's super fugly/cute photos!

im TIRED!!!!

10 November 2007 / 11:25 PM

yesterday for the first time, i watched daddy yankee's video with fergie. zomg. he soooooo reminds me of someone. lols. anyway, everything's seems to be okay, i hope it will be ok. im bored of the hair. thought of something to do tmr. :) even he agrees to it. hehe. oh yes, did i mention that when i sent him last thursday, his recruits/platoon thought i was his sister and that they wanted to have my number. wtfff. cant they differentiate how different we both look? hahas. a bunch of idiots, i would say. *chuckles* ok back to tmr's program, im planning to meet my leelee sayang at 12 at eunos platform. hopefully tmr the shop's open so that i could get my hair done. done worry, will post a pic of the hair once i get it done ok! speaking of pics, i have not been posting the photos of MANY recent events. :S hopefully i still remember how to post photos here.

anyway, i just got back from dunnoe-who's-related-to-me's house for a kenduri. i hate the long journey to hougang. gahh. and im gonna hafta type out the equations for my fyp reports. *bummers*. so come on, keep me awake, please mr&miss hiphop/dance songs. i really need to keep myself awake. since im already done with chp 1 and 1/2 of chp 2 for iwm, im left to do the rest tmr and monday. hopefully i could finish them tmr. and yes, he's promising an ice cream treat at bnjs and a movie on monday. *smiles* so i cant wait for the treat, mr officer!

me and my leelee kentot sayang. hehs. i love our airpork studying session, i mean, me and hal, not leelee. :)

cant you see how much weight i've gained? bleargh. i've been eating like a pig, i think! time to diet babe!

ah, yess.. that bugis outing when we got our nike bottle. :)

the long waited photo of our hari raya. haha.

09 November 2007 / 11:42 PM

yeah, this entry is dedicated for you. i bloghopped today while doing my fyp report over at a friend's house. its amazing how someone would be able to stage the same drama over and over again, in just a period of time. i will definitely awards you the Emmy Award for the Best Actor. you would definitely win an annugerah anytime you want. you were/are a good actor. bravo. and to all those girls out there, don't be fooled by the outlooks, in other words, appearance, cos its the easiest way to fool someone of their true colours.:)

to my dearest sayang, im so glad i found u my dear.. im so in love with u. if u ever manage to read this entry, i just wanna tell u that i love u... :) im missing u so much alreadi!

08 November 2007 / 8:08 PM

these days were the worse for me. kept on having conflicts with mom-ster. she's been finding faults with me, and me, with my temper, obviously will have things to say. its unfair that she's always pointing the blame on me, whereas she will cover herself to daddy. like for now, i dont even know which side is he on, or maybe he's simply cant be bothered by the tiff(s). everything seems to be not in my favour, and it sucks. seriously.it happened before, and its happening again. how i wish my mom-ster is not like this. why cant she be like other mom-sters? gosh. thats why i cant wait to get out of this prison im living in. i just have to tolerate for the next 3-4 months? after that, im free to do whatever i want with my life.

with him being away, obviously i would be alone, with no one to complain to or to cry onto.

its a surprise to meet an old friend, who happens to be his recruit. hahas. its funny how small this world is eh? what do you think?

Hate That I Love You

05 November 2007 / 6:52 PM

[Rihanna] As much as I love you

As much as I need you

And I can't stand you

Must everything you do make me wanna smile, then i like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]But you won't let me

You upset me girl

And then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)

Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]But I hate it...You know exactly what to do

So that I can't stay mad at you

For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]But I hate it...You know exactly how to touch

So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more

Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)

I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)

And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]You completely know the power that you have

The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]Said it's not fair

How you take advantage of the fact

That I... love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]And I hate how much I love you girl

I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can't let you go

But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]As much I love you (as much as I need you)

As much as I need you (oooh..)

As much I love you (oh..)

As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)

And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

dokter cinta ♥

/ 6:52 PM

i just hate that i love him so much.

i hate that i'll smile each time i look at him or hear his voice each time we're mad at each other.

and i'll just forget that we were quarelling.

all the big things will look small immediately.

but, im glad that i found him.. & he's mine.

i don't care what others might think of him cos i know he's the one for me.

he still has the insecurities, but i'll assure him soon that he's the only one.

the nightmares are not helping either last week.

they just make things worse for us.

but we've managed to sail through the rough times together.

im glad we had that understanding.

and i just dont wanna fuss about them anymore.

im so tired of school. they just gives me headaches and late nights. i have to mug for 2 tests on wednesday. gotta get back to the notes. i'll update again soon.

summerlove ♥♥

03 November 2007 / 11:57 PM

im sorry if i've been a bitch these days.

its period.

to all parties, pls forgive me for my wrong choice of words lately.

and to you, im glad you made the right decision :)

and to you, i wont be seeing you till you are done with the trainings, which means, i wont be seeing you like in 2/3 weeks?

but its ok, we could always video call eh? *winks*

and i miss you(s) so much! ♥ ♥

change, for once.

01 November 2007 / 10:26 AM

im sick of it.

if you dont risk it, you'll lose what you already have.

so please, change, for once.

You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes

30 November 2007 / 4:21 AM

28 November 2007 / 3:59 PM

the internet giving me problems again.

im going nuts over it.

" not connected "

fcuk it.

tmr's mtb test.

5-6pm.

and i end sch at ard 11.

6 hours of mugging in the library can make a sane person go insane too.

but i know i'll just catch some sleep somewhere :)

im seeing you tmr!

yes, you.

/ 3:29 PM

its all over between us now.

and i cant believe it ended yesterday.

yes.

yesterday afternoon.

at 1 pm.

no, and im not gonna miss you.

im glad it ended between us.

you go on your own way,

i'll go mine.

i'll have peace & serenity.

ITS OVER, FYP.

GOODBYE.

with lotsa <3

26 November 2007 / 1:03 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST POMPEEPEE!

yati's birthday!!!

25 November 2007 / 1:07 PM

met the girls at around 1?

we went to town to get everything ready + plans

hehehe.

so finally, it was SHOWTIME

it was SURPRISING!

i hoped my prettypretty fish-eye-camera owner loved the surprise!

'hi maam would you like to have 2 balloons?'

" HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! "

omg. she was so shocked that she laughed & cried?

heeehee.

i hoped u like the presents, sayang!

then after that we went to paragon's project shop cafe for a simple celebration.

brownie with ice cream + candle + birthday song = happyness

so at ard 5.20, i left the girls to meet him for the bbq.

that kental bf of mine, mistook the west train for the east train.

so we both missed each other. i dropped off at bedok with hal since she's dropping there.

i hopped on the next train tt he was in.

that was when things happened.

i regretted meeting him today.

if ONLY i knew that it would only turned out this way, i shdnt have met him.

we actually sat at pasir ris platform, arguing over things and that i dont wanna go the bbq.

i mean.

just imagine.

u treated both sides equally, so that u'll have fun with both sides.

and in the end, u were told in the face tt u shd have just gone home cos u were supposed to be studying.

WAT THE FUCK.

i did that for you, and that was what i get in the end?

thanks alot ah.

the next time u tell me u got some friends' bbq or whatever, im not going.

i dont like ur friends anyway.

a bunch of losers aka the malay mats who cannot make it in the world.

ok, how mean of me.

but.

thats true.

if i cant even stand them for 1 hr, do u think i can stand them bbq-ing in front of me, and handing me the chicken or wat have yous?

no way.

i cant even imagine that happening!

so go yourself.

that's the reason why i changed my mind at the last min.

just to go home, all by myself.

next time, if u dont want me to go, fine, i wont go.

and i dont wanna go anyway in the first place.

yeah.

maybe im too childish that i loved holding balloons.

maybe thats why u didnt want me to go.

FINE. I DONT WANNA GO ANYWAY!

fuck off.

just go urself.

and now im even thinking abt whether want to meet u tmr or not.

i should be studying right?

and stay at home.

yeah. maybe that's wat im going to do.

just study all day long at home.

dont even bother meeting me tmr.

having fun there i guess.

so goodbye,

& good night everyone.

i've had my shoutout for today.

/ 1:07 PM

Must Everything you do?

Makes me wanna smile.

I love you beyond the reason why.

And that's the reason why i adore you.

he appeared at my doorstep, a few mins after i blogged the previous entry.

with the flowers in his hands.

and a tiny card saying 'i'm sorry & i love you'.

and then he left.

Breakin' Dishes

23 November 2007 / 1:58 PM

the phone's vibrations not working.

shit them.

now, i wont even know if any of my darlings msg me once i put the phone to silent mode.

arggggh.

i wish i could scream!

today was tiring.
i didnt bring my THUMBDRIVE!

so the 4 hours of PDP was wasted.

hais. thanks to me,that is.

so just now i tried doing the simulations from home.

3 hours.

and i got sick looking at it.

so now im waiting for snowlin to send me the format for the logbook.

at least tmr he's bringing me to sentosa to release some stress i hope.

monday - FYP DATELINE.

wednesday- MTB test==> fuck&im dead.

i havent even touch a single shit of it yet.

tmr- fyp + sentosa

sat- gurlies outing + his friend's bbq.

so that will leave me with sunday.

im doomed.

my doom's day is coming soon.

21 November 2007 / 2:58 PM

wat a day!!!

/ 6:11 AM

so sick :(

17 November 2007 / 1:04 PM

boohoo. been sick seen yesterday, no, actually since thursday.

the cough and the blocked nose irritates me to the core.

and i had to cancel the bbq tt i promised to go with him...(booohooo!!)

thursday i had a bad day to start with.

it was raining and i couldnt concentrate during plant design.

grr.

then i found out that i had practical in the afternoon.

i had argued with peter the day before that we had off, but i was wrong.

so i had to skip the 12-2pm lesson, just to get my lab stuffs from home.

then, i reached the lab late for abt 15 mins.

basket. my group was waiting for me actually.

then yesterday, i was doing my fyp from 9 am to 2pm.

that was when i started to cough terribly tt a woman sitting nxt to me had to shift to another seat.

ahh.. watever singaporeans, no, not singaporeans, cheenahs-who-are-dumb-as-they-thought-cough-could-infect-another-person!

we were too engrossed in finishing the report by yesterday, so tt we'll have time to edit them.

but im glad the simulations were finally done!

so after that, i met him.

we couldnt decide what to watch when i bimbotically suggested tt we should watch 'enchanted'.

we took 106 down to town, when i saw the 'enchanted' poster at one bustop.

being sooo excited, i was like;

me: eh sayang! tt's the Enchanted movie! i cant wait lah

him: smiling at me one kind (i knew that smile of his..tt cheeky face)

then i noticed..

"opens 22 november"

me: eh? its open on 22nd lah! today wat date ah? open already ah?

him: (looking at his watch and hp for the date)

me: (looking at my hp) eh? today only 16 ar? alamak! not openned yet? how?

him: oh shit. i thought u didnt notice tt. i was hoping u didnt see, & i'll wait til u reach the counter n asked for the tickets. hehehehe....

me: idiot u! u knew its not openned yet! bugger...

and he ate macdonald's nugget as we sat down at the istana park.

then he sent me home when my mum invited him for dinner.

lols.

and i was already coughing so bad tt i felt like sleeping rightaway.

this morning, mum forced me to go doctor so tt i could get some pills.

and now, im resting on my bed, feeling sleepy all of a sudden.

(the syrup's working on me! argh!)

and he's starting to feel sick too.

oh wells.

people, spread the love, not the disease! hahas.

happy saturday!

goodbye and im gonna sleep...zZZzzZZZzz....

14 November 2007 / 10:00 PM

sick :(

bugis sucks.

11 November 2007 / 9:59 PM

im TIRED!!!!

10 November 2007 / 11:25 PM

me and my leelee kentot sayang. hehs. i love our airpork studying session, i mean, me and hal, not leelee. :)

cant you see how much weight i've gained? bleargh. i've been eating like a pig, i think! time to diet babe!

ah, yess.. that bugis outing when we got our nike bottle. :)

the long waited photo of our hari raya. haha.

09 November 2007 / 11:42 PM

08 November 2007 / 8:08 PM

Hate That I Love You

05 November 2007 / 6:52 PM

[Rihanna] As much as I love you

As much as I need you

And I can't stand you

Must everything you do make me wanna smile, then i like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]But you won't let me

You upset me girl

And then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)

Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]But I hate it...You know exactly what to do

So that I can't stay mad at you

For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]But I hate it...You know exactly how to touch

So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more

Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)

I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)

And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)

But I just can't let you go

And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]You completely know the power that you have

The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]Said it's not fair

How you take advantage of the fact

That I... love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]And I hate how much I love you girl

I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can't let you go

But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Ne-Yo:]Yeaahhh... Oohh...

[Rihanna:]As much I love you (as much as I need you)

As much as I need you (oooh..)

As much I love you (oh..)

As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]And I hate that I love you so

And I hate how much I love you boy

I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)

And I hate how much I love you boy

But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)

And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

dokter cinta ♥

/ 6:52 PM

i just hate that i love him so much.

i hate that i'll smile each time i look at him or hear his voice each time we're mad at each other.

and i'll just forget that we were quarelling.

all the big things will look small immediately.

but, im glad that i found him.. & he's mine.

i don't care what others might think of him cos i know he's the one for me.

he still has the insecurities, but i'll assure him soon that he's the only one.

the nightmares are not helping either last week.

they just make things worse for us.

but we've managed to sail through the rough times together.

im glad we had that understanding.

and i just dont wanna fuss about them anymore.

im so tired of school. they just gives me headaches and late nights. i have to mug for 2 tests on wednesday. gotta get back to the notes. i'll update again soon.

summerlove ♥♥

03 November 2007 / 11:57 PM

im sorry if i've been a bitch these days.

its period.

to all parties, pls forgive me for my wrong choice of words lately.

and to you, im glad you made the right decision :)

and to you, i wont be seeing you till you are done with the trainings, which means, i wont be seeing you like in 2/3 weeks?

but its ok, we could always video call eh? *winks*

and i miss you(s) so much! ♥ ♥

change, for once.

01 November 2007 / 10:26 AM

im sick of it.

if you dont risk it, you'll lose what you already have.

so please, change, for once.